dreamed of living pendently.

[riveryog]

today I didn't intend to utter, but just continue yesterday's consequence. my baby brother offered me 1500 CNY after my formidable argues, I immediately pay back alipay virtual credit, near 1800, but i was rebuffed any more credit, so now i penniless. CCP must brewed quite some time aiming curb my activities. they currently plotted to take control of alipay, their dream is control PRC with quota.
dear God dad, i left with no fear, help me get through this hard economy. help me reach 2021 with merry heart.

[riveryog]

in dawn dream I again and again repeated how to declare my 3 children: I will using 30% dynamics with http to declare my first son, then using 50% dynamics with https declare my 2nd child, then 20% with http to do with my 3rd child. I my own don't know what that means, but I had the proportion. my dearest relative, my 3rd elder sister, even hard to believe I will have romance as God promised I have better option in choosing my new partner of life. but yesterday 2 girls in my sphere both accepted my gaze which relax me. in the night i buzzed a alumnus in north China where just pestered by pandemic, he soon bored by my ailment report. dear God dad, I still have faith my suffering can be removed by heat & your mercy. I still believed I can be attractive. thx God dad, this sunny morning, I really anxiousness free.

[riveryog]

in dawn dream first likely in campus, my art college friends came over to exchange their graduation presentation, colorful animations like my once obsessed with flash multimedia when I worked for QRRS cable TV. Then dreamed my son waiting me to reinstall OS on his pc while I urgently has another schedule. I install av soft client on it and manually let it fit & reliable. I finally got it working after lots of efforts. dear God dad, it's now a late morning, I just got my toe nails clipperred. Holy spirit, let my life easier.

[riveryog]

last night near 7pm, my bought online getup aid arrived. I unable to shift the heavy package, so the porter woman asked one passing guy to help me get it indoor. I open the package, till the heavy pedestal rebuff my any attempt to move it. so I entreated neighbor young guy to install for me. he didn't wasted any time or material and done in a quarter. the steel pedestal quite cold and let my leg cold, so I asked my son's mom to lend me some plastic cushion and she admitted. this morning I lingered more time on bed, for showering after lunch is a daunting job for me, for the painful fingers. dear God, let my life easier.

[riveryog]

last night I likely left without dream. this morning I had nothing to review. last dusk I bought some cherryberry from street vendor, I shared some with seejoy dumpling restaurant girl, neighbor kid in dorm, this morning when I washing in toilet, the dorm cleaner approached me and chatted. so I shared the remnant of cheerberry with her. the woman immediately took lion share of it. that let me anger, so I praying God let it go, and my brain empty for my blog. dear God dad, let my life easier.