zhone, 矢子家庭集。是子不逆，有始无终。何时何处事假。 one China of one Chinese. unite China as well as Chinese all over the world under one China in democracy under God's shine. secure China in Empire and Dynasty, uphold Chinese under God's shine.
in dawn dream, I insisted time zone 9 would be better than where China was, global time zone 8. I saw time zone 9 has wealthier payroll, versatile goods and service, far more dearer, much huger cash flow. dear God, yesterday watched a video of armless kid dealing with personal care, dear God dad, I should not complain my pains, but still this morning I felt sad that I can't live without pains. dear God dad, pandemic lockdown near its end, grant me another laundry contractor.
in dawn dream prayed God not let my son frequent masturbation, with which I did a lot in my youth due to unable to afford real sex. but since my adulthood, I never did once. last night I posted passionate post in my alumni group. this morning I got up slightly earlier, God, I like it. this noon I will picked back a restaurant I once haunted but refuted once by the boss, for I lost appetite in my recent frequented restaurant. God, let it peaceful and fruitful.
last night, I tentatively let my quilt cooler and get a better fast sleep. in dawn dream, in family life i cared my son and without special treat, his heat disappeared and didn't sneeze, totally resumed to healthy after covid-19 pandemic. i didn't saw his mom's joys but our gratefulness is real and huge. last night reviewed CCP's wrest not to allow my acquaintance to accept my laundry contract, aiming sicken me in insanity. dear God, I will wait and see, before that I will survive weeks only spa no fresh clean inner clothes. dear Holy, save me from rotten.
last dusk in restaurant I talked with my favorite waitress my eldest sister who committed suicide in her 30s'. I told her why I felt her as my mom, while my biologic mom dependent on my pension. in dawn dream, I created a poem says, on the empty dawn deck when my nephew left my parents' custody and reunited his father, also a decade ago his mom jumped into river in early spring dawn after a dispute with her husband and never turns back. my parents likely felt the vain and gave birth of my kid brother later now most wealthy among my siblings. my brother-in-law kept single for several decades for his wife, my eldest sister, then lately in 50s or older, he married again and had one or two children. my nephew claimed he felt my mom like mom in recent chat while he obviously loyal to his dad after left my parents family. dear God dad, I never saw clear the dynamics of our old family, but I am so obliged to it. dear God, holifies my eldest sister in heaven. let my life enjoyable, God dad.
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last night I finally got showered with fresh clean under clothes.I paid the dorm canteen operator family's kid to replace my bed sheet and quilt cover while I haunted spa. in the spa, I met the cashier who has perfect breasts. she wore a yellow shirt with word 'Royal', we had nice conversations, including another elder woman worker. in the night I sleeplessly in hours, for the painful and relentlessly desire. in dawn dream I saw a Queen, I tought her sword on horse. taught her defense by fasten opponents' incoming thrusts with sword's entangling. then she develop herself female knights team, adopted defense shield as badget, while I moved on to be aggressive tactics. in dawn, my sleep was cozy and rich. dear God dad, let my life easier.
these days fingers' pains let me lingered more on bed in dawn. in my mind, my bed likes a H clockwise 90, only 2 sides larger to allow my arm's spread, and legs' stretching. in dawn dreams, I always regard there were some eggs shaped memory capable units among the paddles aside my foot, I chose one like choosing a wife or a computer to enter another dream or adventure. this dawn dream I vivid saw my dark cousin, who once CCP cadre and close chaser of my dad, I saw my mom waiting for my homework while I in risks. my homework is like a clipboard with different narrative elements, likely include memory of son of my only aunt, whose major is construction design. dear God dad, after broke so many obstacles to arrive here, I in time to catch my main meal and morning sunshine. thx Holy, let my life easier.
yesterday first time I felt my most helpful thumb and 2nd finger were hurting: painful & inflexible. at lunch my all thoughts were shifting to my hometown, where much hotter than here, where I will put on less and less painful amid. returned to dorm, i searched train travel and let my son offer money needed. before 1 pm, I got the e-ticket. I informed people I concerned, esp working unit where some guy suggested my preparing proof of innocent during pandemic. now I will have more time to prepare the leave, previously I had 2 regrets: first, not married a local tall girl, but a short wealthy girl, but I naturally admire tall girl; 2nd, didn't spend all life closely look Siberia as Holy entrusted. now I trust all to God dad, and in faith a better plan ahead. dear Holy, let the event sooner to arrive.
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dear God dad, I can't wait for the hometown journey. in dawn dream, I decompile an app distributed by CCP, found its core functions self-limited not to improve, but just act like a trojan reporting to its server. then I replaced the 2 core parts with normal, self-improving ones and repacked for family usage. this morning I lingered more time on bed, dear God dad, soon I will showered, let my life easier.
dear God dad, this morning really slept consolidated. I lately now to blog. in dawn dream we entered Australia, where there were 3 ports accessible but all encrypted. I unable to read the text but still we granted to enter. in a dusk scene, we play soccer on beach while destiny so close. dear God dad, near launching I still felt nervous, grant me a peaceful journey and stable workspace.
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dear God dad this afternoon I will be on way hometown. last dusk I napped sound. this dawn dreamed recently watched movie, a girl of USA president during catastrophe trying to evade his dad's influence to build her confidence via through herself in rescue volunteer, I felt the similarity of my son who the gifted. dear Holy let our life promising as usual, let my journey for healing harvesting.